Rebiund Chapter 48: Sensations

Hal post dedicated to L55 

You'll know why when u read ;p

ENJOOY :**

Previously:

Hind: 7amad?? hatha inta?

7amad: hala 5alte ee hatha ana.. faja2teeni walla 5alte Hind.

Hind: Eee walla ana esta'3rabt lama sheftek... ee 9a7 wee nsait a3arfk 3laaiha, ba3ad hatha 9ar et9er murtk inshala, 9j ina ma 9ar shay rasmy w laima al7en mashft'ha 3adl bs e3tbr hathe awal shofa... hathe benti Lulu.

7amad: hala walla.. shlonech lulu? sha5barek?

Lulu: 7mdila b5air.

7amad: doom inshala

   7amad couldn't help but notice how beautiful she is. Even without one drop of make up. She had mid length brown hair and big brown eyes. She was thin but a tiny bit taller than the average Kuwaiti girl. Mashallah etyanen many gadr asheel 3aini 3anha.

Hind: yalla 7bebi 3yal man6awl 3laik 3shan trta7

7amad: La shad3wa 5alte.. for9a sa3eeda Lulu.

Lulu: w ana as3ad.. ma3a ilsalama...

7amad: ma3a ilsalama...

WOOW! 

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   "Razan..... Razan n6raaay..." She didn't answer. She didn't want to answer. She played dumb and continued walking. "RAAZAAAN!!" Razan was worried someone would hear whats going on w mu 7lwa eb 7agha at night w eb hal mukan. Razan quickly turned around and took a few steps forward closing the large between them "WHAAAT??? can you not shout my name out in the middle of the parking lot!!"

   "EE STOP WALKING W RDAY 3LAIY! lo rdaitay i wouldn't have to shout." She stood there for a few seconds took a deep breath turned around and took a few steps only to feel someone snatch her back. "Stop walking away ogfay!" There was a tone of pleading in his voice

   "Let go of me please! "
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   Without saying another word, he dragged Razan and stood between two cars so they would be out of sight. "I let go of you now what? your going to leave again?" He was hurt from Razan's actions "Yeah maybe i will! a9lan what are you doing here? aren't you suppose to be in Italy with your NEW WIFE!!" 7amad was surprised at her question. "I had a few days off gelt aye 7g il3ers and what wife???" He was completely confused. "What wife?? don't play dumb! i know there's a new lady in your life that your going to play around with!!"

   "Play around with??? sh'3a9bch!! Razan im not married where the hell did you get that from?!" He wanted to snap back at her remark but he ignored it. "I know your parents ybonkm tzwaj w ta5th'ha ma3ak Italy since your moving there!" Razan said that in the lowest voice ever. Scared of admitting the truth. "9a7 my parents kanaw ybone atzawaj w 9j omi lgatle wa7da bs ana matzawjt, 7tan 5e6ba rasmya ma 9arat, kil ili 9ar 7ache." He wanted her to understand.

   "Mdam fe wa7da out there that's waiting to be officially engaged to you then i won't stand between you two. I refuse to be the reason for her going through what i wen through so please move i've got a wedding to get back to." She couldn't let the same thing she went through happen to someone else. Feeling abandoned and betrayed even for a second is something no human being should go through. "LA2! mara7 awa5r wla ra7 a5alech t7arkain! n6art wayd w mara7 an6r anymore! There might be a woman waiting and she might be beautiful, gorgeous polite and every man's dream.."
Razan cut him off before he would continue "I don't need to now all this about your future wife for god's sake CUT IT OUT AND MOVE!!!"

   "Gltch mara7 awa5er w 5aleni akaml! she might be every man's dream but she's not mine. She's not my dream, she's not the one i chose, she's not the one my heart chose! She's not the one i want to spend the rest of my life with!! fehmay walla ta3abteeni!!" Razan couldn't take it anymore she wanted so bad to break down and cry but she kept reminding herself of Aseel's wedding. She had to go back in there and she can't go back in there with tears running down her face and mascara say7a 3la wayha.

   "Where were you before haa?? wainek 3ane gbl? i might have been as subborn and hard headed as a large rock but i was hoping that you sit me down and force me to hear what i wanted to hear!!! why now?? why now when i'm finally able to live with the pain of not having you???" So many questions were running around in her head. As much she didn't want to listen to him before she also wanted him to fight for her and ignore what she wanted just to prove to her that he loves her.

   "Razan shswe! you refused to listen to me w Aseel was standing by you and supporting your decision! ma7ad kan rathy ysma3ne wla ya36eni fur9a ina i fight for you! You quickly made your own assumptions! You didn't give me the benefit of the doubt! I don't know how to live without you Razan! You turn my world right side up!" He was breaking her heart but now its too late for the both of them to admit there mistakes. She can't just take him away from someone else. "Mahma kan gabl '3air w al7en '3air. Al7en someone else is in the picture. You need to think of her as well."

   "NOTHING HAPPENED BETWEEN US!! agoolch we're not even official its just 7ache!!" He couldn't believe what she was saying. Why is she throwing away another chance. "THATS WHAT WE WERE!!! WE WEREN'T OFFICIAL AND YOU CANCELLED THE DAY THAT WAS SUPPOSE TO MAKE US OFFICIAL!! we weren't official and it was also 7ache with us as well! bs 7ache between us and our family. The day that things were suppose to be official was thrown away by YOU!!!" He is describing the exact situation they were in. "BUT IT WAS DIFFERENT!! ana knt a7bch w still a7bch!! il7ache ili 9ar mat'3ayr I STILL WANT YOU! il 7ache ili 9ar was real! it was real and you jumped to conclusions!" He felt like Razan was slipping away again slowly. "Razan what do you want? ma3laich mn ay shay thany ma3laich mn ay sha59 thany! What do YOU want! don't think about anyone else tell me!!"

   "I don't know!!" She knew exactly what she wanted but she was scared of saying it out loud. A battle between the right thing to do and what she wants to do was going on in her head. "WHAT DO YOU WANT??!! i know what i want because its u! i want what's standing right in front of me right now!! what do you want?" 7amad's eye were pleading for the answer he knew was deep down in her heart, he wanted her to say it. "I have to go 7amad please!!" She pushed him aside and began walking. 7amad was furious "RAZAAAN!!" He screamed out her name so loud her heart skipped a beat and she immediately turned around. "Shfeek??"

   "YOU CAN'T... YOU JUST... " He was so mad and hurt he didn't know what to say. He marched towards her, wrapped his right arm around her waist and held her upper arm with his left hand, pulled her slightly up and kissed her. He kissed her for the first time. He kissed her so hard with all his being. If words couldn't show her how much he wanted her then his actions can. He softened his kiss scared of hurting her. Razan tensed up at first. She was caught off guard and wasn't expecting him to kiss her when she saw him marching towards her. She thought he was going to hurt her.

   She quickly pushed every thought out of her mind and tried to comprehend what was happening. She let go and let the moment control her. She wrapped her hands around his neck as a single tear slowly rolled down her cheek. He caressed her lower back and pulled away to look her. Her eyes were full of questions.

   7amad noticed the tear sitting on her cheek and wiped it away. He didn't get enough of her. Her lips tasted of strawberries, he wanted more. He leaned back in and was a centimeter away from her lips but he stopped. He wanted to know if she was ok with this. Razan moved face closer till their lips were brushing against each other. 7amad moved his lips onto Razan's lip and barely touched them but pulled away again. Lust was overpowering him. He moved closer and touched her lips with his one more time but as soon as she was going to settle and kiss him he moved away again. This was torturing Razan. Why is he doing this. They both know how much they want there lips to kiss again. Finally, he kissed her without any more of his games.

   7amad wanted every feeling, every taste, every touch from this very moment to be imprinted in his memory. As Razan kissed him back he devoured her lips not wanting to ever stop. She let out a slight "mmmm" which pushed him over the edge but he quickly stopped himself and pulled away scared of what might come up next.

   7amad's eyes were sparkling while Razan was in a daze. "This is what i want, I want all of this for me. I won't allow anyone else to have you." Maybe this was it. Maybe finally he can get her and she can be his. "I want this too, if only someone else wasn't involved."

   "Laish em9amema you complicate things ya Razan?? You know what! Fine kaifech!!! bs lat3a9ben 3ala ay shay ra7 tshofena meni INZAIN??" He squeezed himself between Razan and the car and stormed away leaving Razan in the parking lot all alone. She stroked her lips as she remembered the sensation. What did i just do?? What the hell is wrong with me offf!!

   Razan quickly ran back inside gabl ma a7ad yla7th ina she's missing. She went to the restroom first to touch up on her make up. A few minutes later she was done and went straight to Aseel and Fahad 3ashan etbarklhum. To he surprise Aseel noticed something fishy going on. "Razan.. shfech chthe wayhech ma9fog?"

   "Haa la mafeni shay slamtch, don't worry about me, your husband is right next to you estansay ma3a." She give her a quick kiss on the cheek "Mabrook Fahad, adre ina mayabela awa9ek bs ham der balek 3laiha, Aseel means the world to me." She smiled as she said every word hiding the fear that was filling up every vein in her body.

   "Affaa 3laich, Aseel eb 3youni.... Razan?? shftay 7amad 9a7?" Razan felt the color draining from her face but she played it cool. "7amad?? laa mashftaa? rad mn Italy?" Fahad obviously didn't believe her but played along. "Ee rad for a few days w brd Italy..."

   Razan smiled and turned around and walked away heading back to her seat. For the rest of the night all she could think about was 7amad's last sentence. Shno '3a9da? Shno nawe ysawe??